Why my brother is my BFF

yes my BFF..i stil use those terms.

Found this in my lil bros journal. i guess it was intentionally placed on his memory card for me to read..


18-02-2009

Aaaah how the days go by so quick hey. Hi my name is Gerard and Iam here to express who Iam.

Few days ago my sister told me that she is pregnant…..mmmm damn how many thoughts ran through my mind, didn’t know what too think, was sad confused and disappointed in a way, I cant explain. When she told me, everything stood in slow mo and the things she did came to sense, I know she was acting different and all that but I never would have thought she pregnant. Always checked nah it just D**** giving her grieve for a while , O how a poes I felt when I always was the initiator for her to do something come the weekend I understand now only…. I know I can make up for not being supportive and there for her.

Iam gonna do everything in my power and what I can do for my sister , I might lack the age but I know her road gonna be a hard one due to our family that is full of comments and nope not talking about my close family but the family that come once a year to devour what we have. What shocks me is that fact my mother is taking this like its a new born of hers , I truly watch them talk and I sit there with a half a smile and a bomb going off in my head. I take it my mother knew what was coming…it the only way.

G***** told me that mama had a dream of father holding a baby….
A blessing I say. I just want the child too be brought up in a family that has strength and devine power for this is what we have gained after the years . The baby has be our start, a new start maybe for some good the baby might,,, wait… gonna bring us closer together, G***** the first too carry on my fathers legacy. I thank her for this and stand tall as I can say the blood and flesh shall be born pure with a confidence of G****** and the soft heart of D*****.

I can only look back and wonder why didn’t I pick up the signs before?? Guess it was not my time yet or just that I really didn’t take notice, whatever the reason I know what I have to do. Be with my sister and show her just how much I care and adore her for the woman she has come, went passed my expectations, she’s a star in her own right yep she is……

Iam gonna let my sister read this and when she gets too this point I hope she smiling atleast ….This is just the beginning of my dairy and the next time I write iam taking it back too my childhood…………Nuthing shall forestall my return.